Posted by Anonymous on 2019/09/27 under Love I wish I could be your haven just as you are to me. No matter how much I try, I always fail to be the best girlfriend that you deserve to have. I want to understand everything about you, but most of the time I found myself hurting because of the little things you do. And so it changes everything, which left you no choice but to understand me instead. I know how hard it is for you to keep loving me. I'm not giving you any reason to keep falling for me everyday. Who knows maybe every single day i'm making you wonder if you found love or found trouble in me. I wanna know how does it feel if you were proud of me. But sad to say I'm not giving you anything to be proud of. I'm like a little girl who needs to be taken care of. You need to watch me over each and everytime 'cause I don't know how to handle myself quite well. I wish I could say sorry to you, but I don't wanna bother you with my drama. I know how you hated dramas. So I'll just say it here. Here, where I can pretend I am talking to you. Here, where I share my dramas with you, without you knowing it…without bothering you. Besides you don't need to know everything about my thoughts, I don't want you to worry about me. Sometimes when I get bombarded with too many what ifs, I wanted to ask you right away, to ease my insecurities, my fear. But once I cool down, I realize I shouldn't be asking you such, 'cause your love is enough. And I'm sorry if I keep reminding you how you should treat me. I know it wasn't right to live my fantasy. You have your own life and you have your own way to show your love, and that is something I have to keep in mind.